Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sitting with Job
My business has been battered by the disaster that is the Michigan economy. I'm still waiting for the recovery that has been talked about some time. But it is what it is. I knew there was a risk when I went out on my own. There is a high risk and a high reward in a venture such as self employment, and I'm in the risk phase right now. I'm praying that the reward phase is just around the corner.
But the real struggle has been in the health of our family. Last year I tore my rotator cuff and labrum in an unfortunate incident. The recovery from the surgery has taken many months and much hard work. Today is the first day I have been able to throw a tennis ball without any tightness or hitch in my motion. It's a small victory, but I need a victory.
My kids have both had their share of issues. One has developed POTS, and the other has a spinal malformation that has just come to light. I know you never want to ask the question "What else can go wrong" but I'm about there. I know that my issues are not life-threatening but they are potentially serious medical issues that have turned our lives upside down in the past year. I long for the days when I awoke and assumed that everything was going to be OK that day. I say this not to evoke sympathy or pity, but to bring up a point.
I have gained a great appreciation for people who have been through periods of suffering. I have had a taste of what it is like to have the concerns of life just grind you down and suck the joy out of your day. I've seen the depressive effects of losing hope that things will return to normal. I've seen the bills that chronic illnesses can generate.
If you have been suffering and I have been indifferent to you, please accept my apology. Sadly it has taken some ugly life events to open my eyes to the suffering of others. I pray that God will use this with me in ministry to help others during their time of sitting with Job. If you haven't read Job lately, open your Bible and take a look at a story of suffering and redemption. It's a good, but difficult at times, read. You will also learn that good, Godly friends are invaluable because Job's friends were next thing to useless.